Sunday, March 1, 2009
I spent today at the mostly silent retreat for my 8 week MBSR class... Now, for those of you who know me you can stop laughing now. Yes, I did manage to be silent for 5+hours AND I learned so much about myself during this time.
I learned that when you are meditating for hours at a time you can't run from yourself forever. I learned that freedom from fear, anger, and sadness is the ultimate freedom. I learned that I am not just the rose or rosebud part of PetalsYoga but instead I am the whole rosebush. Deep roots and hardy stems, able to withstand the many winters of disease and to blossom anew with the warming sun. A radiant white light entered my body as I realized this during meditation and suddenly, I felt whole and healed.
I also let go of worrying endlessly about every other person in the room and whether they were okay or getting their needs met, and finally focused selfishly inward. Freedom.
Just my thoughts fresh from the retreat. Have you ever spent a day in silence and contemplation? Fill me in on your thoughts and observations. I'd love to hear.
at 7:26 PM