Saturday, January 24, 2009

Saturday Shopping

We spent the day looking at washing machines, books, and puppies. And we bought.... two books. ;-)

We had a few snowflakes fall today to remind us that it IS still winter and more is being forecast for tomorrow. Not to be a scrooge, but I think I'm over winter for the year. It was fun but now I'm done.

Last Thursday was my first Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) class. I'm surprised by how resistant I am to it. I signed up eagerly and with a great desire to learn, but you know what? I really don't like sharing with large groups of strangers. I really, really don't. I don't know if this is a new thing about me or a long-held aversion, but it makes me sad to hear about other people's tragedies and I certainly don't want to share any of my difficulties (which I view as fairly minor) with them. I guess this is exactly why developing a mindfulness practice in life is important. I never really noticed this about myself before and I am interested in WHY I feel this way. And on a purely superficial level, the homework is excruciating. Every day I have to listen to the same 40 minute body scan CD to focus on coming into the body and being present. IT IS TORTURE!!! Seriously, I've done this many times before but for some reason this particular exercise on a daily basis is painful. I'm doing it but I'm not liking it.

So, that's my whinging revelation for the day. I can't share with a room full of nice strangers but I spill my guts on the blogosphere.... hmmmmmm, interesting. Think I'll go meditate on it.

Take care and let me know if you feel the same way I do or if you love sharing in group settings. I'm really interested.

Take care and stay in touch,

Jan

4 comments:

Rachel Ann said...

Thanks for stopping by on my SITS day last week...I feel so loved and overwhelmed with all the comments! Sorry it's taken me so long to respond back!

PetalsYoga said...

Thanks for visiting me too Rachel!

rebel said...

I'm like you. I feel I have a very blessed life and when I sit with a group and hear their troubles it makes me so sad that I'm bawling when I leave.

Brenda P. said...

My sister did a Mindfulness training and felt the same way, at first. After awhile, she got used to the "sharing"--altho was never crazy about it--but absolutely loved the rest of the training. The level of awareness about herself and her hang ups (for lack of a better word), was really impressive.

With your yoga experience, you've probably got a head start!