We spent the day looking at washing machines, books, and puppies. And we bought.... two books. ;-)
We had a few snowflakes fall today to remind us that it IS still winter and more is being forecast for tomorrow. Not to be a scrooge, but I think I'm over winter for the year. It was fun but now I'm done.
Last Thursday was my first Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) class. I'm surprised by how resistant I am to it. I signed up eagerly and with a great desire to learn, but you know what? I really don't like sharing with large groups of strangers. I really, really don't. I don't know if this is a new thing about me or a long-held aversion, but it makes me sad to hear about other people's tragedies and I certainly don't want to share any of my difficulties (which I view as fairly minor) with them. I guess this is exactly why developing a mindfulness practice in life is important. I never really noticed this about myself before and I am interested in WHY I feel this way. And on a purely superficial level, the homework is excruciating. Every day I have to listen to the same 40 minute body scan CD to focus on coming into the body and being present. IT IS TORTURE!!! Seriously, I've done this many times before but for some reason this particular exercise on a daily basis is painful. I'm doing it but I'm not liking it.
So, that's my whinging revelation for the day. I can't share with a room full of nice strangers but I spill my guts on the blogosphere.... hmmmmmm, interesting. Think I'll go meditate on it.
Take care and let me know if you feel the same way I do or if you love sharing in group settings. I'm really interested.
Take care and stay in touch,